Two updates in as many days?! So unlike me!!!

Posted by Dannii on 11 October, 2009

Today was amazing! I actually managed to succesfully get up in time for church without the usual major rush getting ready, we even had time to grab some breakfast on the way! Church was good, although I completely forgot it was the harvest service today so felt really bad for forgetting to bring anything, I am still fairly new at this church thing so I’m letting myself off this once… as long as I remember next year!!

After the service there was a harvest ‘coffee’, which was actually more like a harvest lunch! It was amazing, I’ve never seen so much tasty looking food altogether! I had this delicious homemade tomato and vegetable soup (perfect considering it’s been pretty cold today!) and some nice sandwiches, I’m trying to be healthy and lose some weight so I resisted the many cakes on offer!

Dan and Big Dan them went off to buy on new Xbox game so I went for a walk with Livvy. She’s one of the new friends I have made down her, she only moved here a few months ago after she got married to Dan’s friend Olly, so it was really nice for us to have a chance to chat! We have a lot in common so get on pretty well, it’s nice to finally have some girls around here!!

Afterwards we all went with the church’s 20s/30s group on a trip round the caves, it was pretty good! I couldn’t believe what a vivid history they had, even in modern times. The people in the group are pretty nice, although I didn’t get to speak to all of them. I am incredibly shy – I think I acutally have some kind of social phobia – so I can’t usually talk to someone the first time I meet them. Once they seem a bit more familiar I’m usually more able to hold a conversation. My shyness is my biggest downfall :( but I was in a good mood so I was able to introduce myself to one of the girls I hadn’t talked to before and she seemed really nice, it helped that one of my new friends Laura was running it, so most of the people there weren’t new.

Livvy mentioned to me earlier that she’d noticed how much more confident in groups I’d gotten since I first met her even, I think I literally didn’t say a word the first time we met! It’s really bad as it makes me come across as stuck-up or moody but I’m just really really shy!!! I even get this on the internet, there are so many people I would love to be friends with because we have a lot in common but I just don’t now how to even begin to. Argggghh, it really is frustrating! It’s so much easier when I meet a really confident person who can just start talking first, that’s how I became friends with my very very good friend Deanna :) She was the only one patient enough in a whole group of people I met!!

I’m definately getting better though, I’ve met quite a few people my age at church now so I feel a bit more into the group, which is really nice for me because I’m just to always been the one standing on the outside looking in because I’ve just been too shy to talk to anyone. It’s not just shyness, my mind actually goes blank because I’m so scared, my heart beats faster, I feel stressed. Thankfully Dan knows this about me and is patient with me though :) He lets me be the first out of the two of us to talk to someone new so that I don’t end up getting left out, I love that he does things like that for me and understands me :)

I’m gonna play Sims 2 for a while now then get ready for bed!