Just Let It All Out!

Posted by Dannii on 17 December, 2009

Sometimes I have days when I’m really delicate and vunerable. I worry about things I probably shouldn’t and get myself in a horrible state. Sometimes I feel inferior to and threatened by other people, which then makes me over-defencive. I can’t just keep these feelings bottled up, the more I think about them, the more they eat away at me. So I tell Dan what’s bothering me because I want him to know everything about me and understand how my mind works. I tell him even the little things I probably shouldn’t because they will make me look crazy, you know those irrational little feelings you sometimes just can’t help. But you know what? He doesn’t think I’m crazy, he just listens and lets me get it all off my chest. He lets me vent and cry and get it all out. He also kicks me back into shape when I need it, and I’m so grateful for that. He reminds me of how lucky I am and how good my life is. Then I realise how none of these little worries matter at all, that I am really loved and that no-one should make me feel inferior.

I wish I could learn to stop worrying, to let my guard down and to make the most of all the wonderful things in my life. I have so much to look forward to with Dan and the new friends I have made here, and I don’t want to miss a moment of it!

This is partially why my new year’s resolution this year is to complete a 365 project. I have wanted to do one for so long and I’m getting a new camera for Christmas =) My reasons in the past for taking photos were mainly because I have such a bad memory but I want to do this project to improve my photography and photoshop skills – something I’ve been wanting to do for years. It’ll be hosted on my flickr account starting Jan 1st 2010! I’m hoping some interesting things will be recorded in it!